Friday, November 21, 2008
Time: 3:26 am
It's really early in the morning but just couldn't get back to sleep. Have been trying to avoid my mum so I pretended to sleep at 7pm and I really dozed off!!
For those of you who know, my 'panda' brother(named by Vns) received his PSLE results today. I was utterly disappointed. You know why? Coz he scored 264 including higher mother tongue. That's 1 mark away from getting scholarship.(but that isn't the reason that upsets me)
Haiz I can hear my heart cracking. If he scored 254, I can kiss him and hug him(I bet he doesn't want) but 264...is too high...for my reach. Then he received a scolding from mum coz he wants to stay in Cat High. I was supposed to talk to him, and convince him to go Hwa Chong. He sounded as if I'm forcing him when actually the last person to wish him there would be me. If I ever say this to mum, another scolding is inevitable. Alr cannot count the number of times I got scolded bcoz of him and the other brother.
Now, I can no longer think further. I always can't think when I'm tearing. What should I do? He doesn't seem to be my little brother anymore. He's so much smarter. Though I realised that so much earlier but when PSLE once again proved t, the feeling is different. To me, the sky is falling. Well, he must be feeling totally different.
Ok, tearing stop. I can think of three options now.
1) Go Mc for breakfast at 6.30am so she can't find me.
2) Go loiter around the park
3) Stay in MRT till 9am then go to work.
Fine, only one is workable. Loitering in the park is impossible coz it's to cold in the morning. And I hate staying in the MRT. But having breakfast at Mc reminds me of Square.
I wish I can scream but I can't scream or if she wakes up, I have no where to hide. Wonder when can this hide-and-seek game end. I can't sleep at 7 pm daily and goes of at 6.30am. She'll suspect. See lah, score so high for wad? Never cease to create troubles for me.
Now she has a daughter with T score of 230 compared to a son who scored 264. Isn't it obvious of the treatment we're going to get after today?
Ya, her logic is damn perfect. Girls are supposed to do all the laundry, understand all the government-sent letters, remake the lost ez links cards for them, tick, buy and carry back their school textbks..etc. How wonderful, they never get blamed when they can't read a letter from the school or government at P4 level. They never get forced to travel to any Parsir ris or Sembawang or any interchange to re make their lost ez link cards. They dun even need to wrap their books, or write a quiting CCA letter or even wipe the laptop coz the laptop stays 'forever clean' since they never need to clean it. Wow, so good to be a guy, isn't it?
My eldest sis encountered the same problem coz my elder brother used to creat countless problems for her when they didn't live with us. But now, he is staying with me...
I presume I can quit this game now. Since he has proven himself capable of doin all those I had done and even to a higher standard, there isn't a need for my help anymore.
Cool..I can quit.
What can I expect..the world is never fair..I must be thankful to be able to study here right..that they didn't leave me there.
Time: 4.43am
