Saturday, January 31, 2009
If I wasn't so dumb
If I didn't try my luck
There is no way I would land in this school.
There is no reason to be upset too. It's all due to my stupidity.
If I settle in the jc I was posted to, 1 hour of travelling, squeezing in buses and mrt will be my daily routines.
Haiz this is worse than getting the O level results.
Everything sux. They just suck.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Happy Chinese New Year can never be happy if six of us stay under the same roof!
It's not like I possess any grudge bcoz my room has to be shared but the ones 'above' me seriously, completely, utterly, thoroughly, absolutely can't get along with the ones 'below' me. Imagine I gonna live another 2 weeks being sandwiched...
我为未来的两星期献上由衷的感叹
Please dun wish me happy chinese new year coz it's impossible to be happy with quarrels and fightings going on.
Jing
Thursday, January 22, 2009
It shocked me when rx is on my side to rebute tommy. I believe each and everyone of us is born with certain responsibility that varifies in range.
Tommy has exactly the same mentality as my panda brother who refuses to care abt his siblings. Not saying reluctant to teach ur brother(of a lower intelligence) is an act of irresponsibility but if he gets into trouble, at least talk to him or give him some encouragement instead of quarreling whenever their eyes meet.
I'll soon die of heart attack if mum dun return by today. He is getting out of hand. My sis once said he is exactly a replica of my elder bro but i think he is worse than that. Guess what his tutor said ytd. She was sighing," Lijing, how can you not care abt ur bro? He has been absent for 2 lessons!"
If my mum were to say those words to me, trust that i'll throw all his belongings out of the house.
Tommy's comment intrigued me. I wonder how he has been living without any younger siblings. He must be a blessed child then.
Look, my family consists of people with wide ranges of characters and (bad)habits. And i have five siblings who dun live together since young. Luckily or unluckily, I'm stuck in the middle who bears hopefully not the most troubles. How should I explain? Before things got smoother, my elder bro didn't talk to my younger brothers coz they didn't live together b4. My panda brother didn't play with my younger sis (not even for now)coz she is too irritating in his eyes. The other played too much with her until he wants to be treated like a 4 yr old kid when he is alr 10. Then the eldest sis gave them overwhelming love until they shield from her now.
If i were to mention 1 thing to show our similarity, that is stubborness. We all process it. That's explains why we should stay together for long since no one gives in during a fighter.
Tommy was saying leave them undone for several days and maybe things may get better. Impossible, and ridiculous if I do.
Why I described his friends as '猪朋狗友' coz they bring out the worst of my bro. I know he wasn't perfect in the first place but at least he didn't run away from tuition or even turn my words to deaf ears. To be honest, I hate to act like a mum. Other sis dun act like that. Just look at Jiayi or Vns, they dun have the problems I face all the while. Or if their mum were my mum then i wouldn't have to be bothered by these.
One skill I failed to impose on my brothers-to cook on the stove. Only last year then the panda learnt to fry an egg and sausage and nothing alse. When he was 12, I left him a pot of unboiled water(on the stove), a packet of instant noodle and 4instructions-when water boils, open the lid, put in the noodles, close the lid, call me after u're done.
Guess how many steps he accomplished. Ans: 1. I dun lie. He opened to lid, stared at boiling water and called for help. Since that day I taught him how to cook instant noodles with microwave.
If I can spendmonths teaching him how to shower, years reminding him to turn off lights after shower then I'll definitely able to make him iron his own shirt one day. Hopefully the day doesn't come after my death.
In an hours time, the 3 plump and fair ladies will come to my rescue. Then I'll wash my hands off the defiant kid. Heng! Dun boys develop later? How can he be so rebellious at the age of 10? Wonder whose genes did he inherit...
I think I may have problem staying with the 3 females. Their appearance always make me look like a neighbour's child(that's why it takes a thousand tons of courage for me to shop with them). If one observe cautiously, I resembles my mum too!
Gonna lay out the bed sheet now(in case someone claims I dun welcome her then she may 没收 my new year gift but I doubt if there is any).
JingTuesday, January 20, 2009
To clarify this with Jiayi, no work doesn't mean I'm free, ok? You can't imagine how much things I have to do since my mum went back to China. Dun believe? I shall list them out.
1st task:
Guard the house coz the annoying neighbour always makes unprecedented and unnecessary visits. Try visualising a woman( a yr older than me) requesting to visit your house when no one else is at home and u are going out in a mins time. Then being alone, she cooks instant noodles on ur stove without any permission. Not feeling that little bit of guilty, she ignores u after being caught 'red-handed', reads her comic on the sofa and treats ur home like hers. This comes to the worse part. Yesterday, she brought her friend to my house for dinner! I couldn't believe my eyes initially. How can her skin be thicker than the elephant's?
Back-up plan: If she insist not to practise basic courtesy of a guest, I'll bar her from my house. Yes, I will. That isn't a difficult task since my mum is not here. Muahahahahahaha, I shall lock her outside my house.
2nd task:
Persuade my (P4) brother to go tuition. I think I over-exerted my brain. The nerve cell are depleting faster than I was studying. Give me SUGGESTIONS! He alomost failed his English last year and now he refuses to buck up. What can I do? Can't possibly kneel down before him and cry my lungs out or throw away his bicycle so that he can't go cycling every afternoon.
That's not exaggeration. He cycles everyafternoon with a bunch of '猪朋狗友', neglects his school work and stuff like that. There's no way to stop him, at least for now. That explains why I hate boys.
Third, I think my 'panda' brother is going crazy over his maths hw and projects. The teacher must be progressing too much to give him hw on factorisation, equation forming, prime numbers..etc without teaching. Just like today, he is supposed to complete 'n' pages of maths workbk, a project on number codes and a 250 words situation writing. He promised to start doing at 3pm. And I was stupid to believe him. The 'Manga fighters' already occupied him at least 3 hours today and there is no way to finish his hw. True enough, he rushed out the maths equations with numerous mistakes, completed only half of the project( not sure abt the situation writing). Serve him right if the teacher were to reprimand him.
In case u are wondering wad has it got to do with me. I sat beside him to ensure the answers are right.( sound quite noble:)
4th task: Forcing myself to read TIMES magazine. (I really hate it hate it hate it.)
5th task: Training the most ever powerful pokemon.
6th task: entertain the calls of my mum's friends. Argh! I respect her big-mouth. There is no way for me to catch up with her. Whoever's call I answered, they asked me how my job and 'O' level result. Hate them.
7th task: Find the newspaper article I wrote online(coz I threw it away and now I need it urgently).
See, I have soooooo much things to do and to worry about.
There is no end to it as long as they dun behave like as student!
Why can't I be several years younger?
Oh ya, sth to be delightful about. Square received his bd present and admited that he like it alot, including the card I wrote him. Hahahha he said alot! not simply like!
Btw, the card contains no mushy expressions or ulterior motive, only a 2 line blessing(in chinese) which spent me a day to think.
Time for me to buck up too. I shall once again try writing descriptive essay in chinese though it needs alot of courage for me to pick up a pen.
Jing
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Yohu! I'm still alive though the results were astonishing. Glad that I'm save and sound though I also drowned my eyes yesterday. So other than my eyes and a bruise on my thigh(which I can't hav no idea how i got it), no where else is hurt(PHYSICALLY).
After working continuously for 21 days, finally I got a 2 days' leave. Supposed to go work today but something cropped up so I thought might as well rest another day and have my favourite porridge as lunch. God! I had not tasted it for 21 days!
When I woke up ytd afternoon, I took several seconds to recall why my eyes were swollen. Ok, it wasn't a dream that I did score terribly bad for it.
This time, I didn't fail anyone but myself, I didn't disappoint anyone but myself. Before considering how to face my family, I was thinking how to face me. The maid must be glad that I didn't break the mirror ...
Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile
There is always a way to go local Uni. The flame in me is still burning!
No worries :)
The mystery awaits for me.
JingThursday, January 8, 2009
I can't believe that I'm getting 'O' level result in less than 4 days time. And a big 'thanks' to my boss who reminded me of that. If he hasn't do so, I would have spent at least 1 more day in peace.
Let's say if I get more than 10 or 11 points, how should I kill myself? Jump down the building, cut my wrist, drown myself, or by hanging?
That's bad. Can't find a way to die without pain, that's why I'm still alive now. So lacking of courage can save my life.
Should I quit the job b4 monday? If I really get 11 points and above, how am I going to face him and worse the woman next room. She'll blow her top again. Then my boss .. haiz how will he react? He's just like my previous tutor with the mentality that A1 is so common and there is no reason why one can't get it.
If exam results are equivilent to intelligence, then I'll be the most stupid person in the whole enrichment centre, including all the permanent and part time staff and my boss and his daughters.
It's very discouraging you see. It's like wherever I go, I'm always the lowest in terms of school or rresults. Luckily not the worst in performance.
To summarise today's work, it's boring but peaceful. Yesterday's is thrilling but messy. There were so many calls and enquires from parents until I'm required to help out at the counter. Then another receptionist was too busy keeping calls to write receipts for the parents so she throw the receipt book to me. Wow, I stunned, how am I supposed to issue a receipt?
I really hate mothers. Hopefully I won't be one of those who scream over the phone without introducing themselves or ask 5 questions simultanenously and expect me to memories them all. Hello? Isn't it her problem when she didn't enquire the teacher her son wants? What's the point of screaming at me her son has to many commitment to squeeze out a timing for another day!!
ArghZ!!! If I were my boss, not sacking that woman would be a sin. Neglecting the importance of remark is irresponsible enough and now she went back to her old habit of using her own system. What is she trying to do? The centre is not hers. Why keep the updates in her own file? Of course it's fine if she updates every file and not hers only. She just don't.
Well it may not be her mistake. Maybe the parents are too demanding or unreasonable. But who love to apologise on behalf of their colleague of the same mistake repeatedly. Sick and tired of saying ,"My apologies, very sorry for the mistake, I'll put a note ther for you, dun worry..."
I must be firm. If another parent calls 2mr and make unreasonable demand or apology or request or whatever, I'll NOT lay my head down, unless it is really my fault. In that case, it'll never happen coz Lijing has been etremely careful :)
Gonna watch tv now. Talk to u another day.(refering to my blog)
:)Saturday, January 3, 2009
I don't know.
I'm perplexed.
If my purpose of signing in is to see him(or his name on msn), even if I diligently does that everyday, he would never appear.
But if I sign in only to check e-mails or coz of other stuff, he will always be there. And he would talk to me if I initiate.
I see his name
there. I clicked. I typed. He replied.
2 weeks of efffort gone down to drain. I talk to him again!
So how?
He is still him. Still so kind, upright and ... and maybe smart. Always knows what's on my mind. Whose smile never fails to melt my heart. Ew, did I just say that?(quoted from HSM2).
Lijing: guess how many times would u thank me in a year?
Square: Dunno
Square: once?
Lijing: why once?
Square: coz my birthday onli once a yr
Lijing: 知道自己吝啬了吧
Square: lol
Lijing: maybe this year will be more
Square: nah
So I found my first goal in 2009 and that is to make him ,by hook or by crook, thank me more than just once!!
Just now was one. So only left one more. Muahahaha ! My beloved Pepper will seep into his dream and turn it into a nightmare!
I wondered how my collegue/s did to make those documents so disorganised and confusing. Remarks was not understandable then cause so many troubles for us. How am I suppose to explain to the weekend receptionist when I didn't update those files. Hello? I am a typist.
See lah! Now I gonna report to work 9 hours later to clear up the mess.
Bad, my back feels for me. Now it aches.
Haiz, I thought I was careful enough in the end there is still so many mistakes in the compositions.
Correction, setting, adding pictures...will be my task next week but not 2mr. The worse is I haven complete the general ability paper!!!
Even if I sms all the parents 2mr, there won't be enough work for me to do unless my boss's wife get more files to photocopy. In that case I'll stand for at least 4 hours.
Wasn't I stupid to go? Who cares if the parents forget the dates. The worst would be the incessant rings from the phones.
Dun worry. That can't be Lijing's mentality. She is just too professional.
Good nites
:)
