Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Haiz, now the whole world knows I got rejected by nyjc. What should I say? I got freaked out by my own results. Even during appealing as I fill in my grades, I feel ashamed. If I were the person looking at it, most probably I'll never accept the student.
On the way to the market this evening I met my neighbour smoking at void deck. Tried to run away but was stopped by him. Obviously, he asked where was I posted to. I smiled then laughed. He thought I'm 7 pointer. Wow! If it is true I can hug him 100 times and kiss him 50 times. Not like what I expected, I was shocked and touched by his encouragement. @.@ Love him million years >.<
I feel rejected. In fact I am rejected. And I may be rejected. Haiz the worst is, I can't die! So painful to be dead. More painful to be alive.
Should I accept it>
Now I realise that only when I am extremely depressed then I can write touching stories in chinese. Just look at my diay entry yesterday, I can never produce one with equal weightage now. How saddening, it has 2 drops of tears' mark on it.
Haiz, I'm lost. Do I deserve the chance?
Lijing
