Eternal.Sunrise.

Bad news, I'm rejected again. Guess I have to stay in Innova for 2 years, visiting the mrt every morning to anticipate the sun rise. That's why plants do isn't it?
Btw, my new 'friends' began calling me floral 'names' since after they knew I was from Mayflower. This morning Fiona asked me why I reach school so early. My reply was," to welcome to sun rise". Lame right?

As anticipated, a school with nearly half of non-chinese won't gather enough student to take up General Studies in Chinese. And since there isn't any combination like H2 maths, chem, CLL(chinese and literature) and H1 econs, I'm forced to forsake chinese. But that's perfectly alright, I can always learn chinese independently through newspaper articles. If there isn't anyone who learns CLL in my class, I can purchase those poems and literature text. If no teachers bother to explain the metaphors to one who dun take the subject, I can find those meaning online or buy those references in China.

If I possess the surviving skills of Erica's, there is no way I can't stand out among these people. When told there are pple whose english standard is lower than mine, I didn't know they exist until they reveal their grades. I also forgot there are pple who didn't do Amaths b4 so they looked blur in front of binomial equations.

I think Jiayi knows that I'm actually not that talkative. I seldom speak during meals and other times like queueing, walking, during class unless there is sth to laugh about. I have listening to silence. But now, I feel forced to talk because my new friends are quite talkative. So I gotta think of sth to say during break, after lectures, while queueing for notes, walking to lecture halls or I'll be left out.

One thing bad about talking to them is I starting to speak more and more Singlish which is very very undesirable. I hate myself to speak in that way but am always influnced unknowingly. HaiZ, can't I live a quiet and peaceful life?

Back to those supposingly 'god' schools, that is no way to express my hatred for them. Though the outcome is predictable and maybe resonable, I can't help to hate them. So for revenge, I am working double hard and triple harder in future in the most intelligent and effective way I can develop to outstand those students in there. Wait and see, I'll snatch away their placings in Uni.(No offense to friends in these JCs)

Jing