Eternal.Sunrise.

I think someone has to be tell me if there is anything wrong with my character or behaviour. There seems to exist a barrier between me and my class, 0923A. I can't identify whether the barrier is built by me but definity something is blocking the way.

They seem so friendly but somehow I face difficulty reaching out to them. Maybe the problem lies with me. I can't stop pondering why we always score similar grades when they dun work as hard as me. Perhaps their brain works best in a carefree lifestyle but that is just not fair.

We may sure the common goal but mentality wise is too much of a difference. They(not all) are too carefree and staying with them doesn't motivate me to even a single min. But if I shun away from them to utilise each min efficently, I'll behave like Erica.

I need a lighthouse, a figure to lead me. I need a motivator, a never-get-bored listener, and a never-be-tired punchbag. Square used to be them. He used to play these roles before, I let him go.

I think I should be my own lighthouse and to listener to my soul. Square has left the usual route to achieve his goal. I must buck up too. So that some day when we meet again, we'll be on the same footing.

Before realising that goal, I have to beat those scholars from other classes. So I gonna mug again.

Be strong :)

Jing