Again tuesday has ended with an hour of tennis lesson. I was pleading Pall to help me train after lesson but he was more keen towards soccer even after he agreed the day before. So he made an excuse saying that my serve is already better than Yongbang and I dun need any more practice. Well, besides the serve, there is nothing else to be confident of since I can't even hit back a ball properly.
I have to admit that my brain is abnormally slow to interpret people's mind. I couldn't figure out their memtality and what makes them so selfish and inconsiderate. Everyone seems happy-go-lucky all day along as of their results were top of the level. They are attached to each other so 'intimately' in class until it gives me the impression that they are really close. Perhaps they are, just that I'm not close to them. But there is one thing I can be 90% sure-no one is near to selfless. Am I slow to realise this only now?
Yong bang is always friendly and helpful towards others, except me. He would lend his tutorials to any classmates but me. He can explain question by question to anyone but me. He would tell others what he is drawing but not me. What is the problem? I could never get it. I thought we are friends. Ya that's right. He didn't oppose me in anything. He dun detest me. But why his attitude towards me is sooooooooo weird? Maybe he didn't even realise. He can't rmb why he refuse to lend me notes or why he refused to explain a question to me. Or did he merely act ignorant so that he can continue not to lend me? fac The H1N1 reall has it all. My CIP plans all flung coz of it. Now I have to plan another programme and find another organisation. The tutorials already squeezed 3/4 of my brain juice, not to mention cca task and the competition I stupidly joined. THe leader is forcing me to think of new ideas every other day. I hate to receive his msg. I gave my ideas and he rejected silently. What's the point of asking me to join if he thinks that my ideas can't work. They can be developed into fantastic story, why did he reject?!
Nothing goes right with the current rate of progressing. Am I progressing anyway? Or have I been stagnant this while?
Should I talk to the school counsellor since I have 2 hours to spare tomorrow morning.
Love compre, Jing
Life-long logic -> scream first
then think.
->think alr dun act .
Dislike pple who are more
talkative, impatient or senseless
than me
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but strictly no beef or mutton
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